As I write this blog tears are really falling down my face. Running down like a waterfall that never stops, my night top is all wet, a box of tissue was completely used. WHY? It's because my favorite cousin, my other big sister and my young mother just passed away this morning due to heart failure at the age of 39.
She was diagnosed of rheumatic heart disease when she was 13 and that she won't reach 30 years old that's what the doctor said. And for that she really lived her life to the fullest. Her motto was "Better do everything now and die young but happy". Her family was so supportive of her even if they know that most of her way were unusual.
She was not allowed to take alcohol but she did so. She wasn't allowed to smoke but she did so. She was a party animal when she reached 18 til her 20's. I often call her "my glamorous sister with brains" because she really was. She loved to dressed up and wore RED lipstick while reading a book. You could smell her perfume 10 meters away. That's MARIE, that's my cuz.
She was the comedian in the family together with my real sister. She introduced me to gay lingo. She was my buddy. She took me with her when I didn't have a place to go. She supported me to all my ambitions. She's the first one to ask me what would I like to take up when I graduated high school. She's my sister at heart.
Did I tell you that she also risk her life just to be a mother to my godson Aaron? Oh yes, she did. She wanted to be a mom before she goes that's what she told me.Aaron was born in 1993. Then she said she's happy. She changed everything. stopped her vices and just because a MOM to her only child. But luck was taken away from her soon. She again suffered few attacks even if she already had pacemaker. Last month she was rushed to the hospital. I regret that I wasn't able to visit her as my side of the family was also in a brink of something.
Today, when I got a text message from her elder sister saying Marie's gone and I really don't know how to react on it. I think I'm too late. And I'm so so sorry I wasn't there for her when she needed me. I really am SORRY......

I guarantee that the whole clan and friends would really mourn because of her passing. This will be a great deal of a loss to us.